This life is a journey. My journey. It's our journey. With social media it's also their journey and their journey becomes intertwined with ours. Their journeys, the people we have allowed into our life directly or indirectly, impact our journey. So how are they impacting us and how are we impacting them?
As most people with an autoimmune disease (and many others) know, stress has a huge impact on our bodies. It seems like those little cells in our bodies latch on to the bad. The pain, the hurt, the fear... Whatever is approaching us at that moment. They latch on and they use those stressors as fuel to wreak havoc on ourselves.
There are some things we can not change. Our life happens and we have to deal with that to the best of our abilities. Their life happens too. We can filter out some of it but inevitably little things are going to slip through. Little things that are unknowingly feeding those juvenile delinquent cells and sometimes, a lot of times actually, we don't notice. Their stress is starting to feed our stress and our stress is surely feeding theirs.
Little things turn into big things when they aren't even our things to worry about. And it's not just negativity. What can be positive for one maybe isn't positive for another.
Every morning before work I'd sit down and enjoy a cup of coffee while scrolling through my Facebook feed. Every morning I'd start my day reading about their days. Some good, some bad.. But not mine, not ours, theirs. From strangers on local news feeds, to friends and family.
For every good/happy/neutral post there are a handful of negative/angry/worrisome/sexual/hypocritical posts. Garbage. Garbage that I let into my life. That we let into our lives numerous times throughout the day.
In my case, I was constantly being sucked in. On trips, at dinner, while exercising, during work. It's too much. I finally realized I need to worry about my life. Not theirs. We need to worry about us. Not them.
I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired and their stress is just adding fuel to my stress. So I'm taking a break from my personal Facebook (I'm still here for my RA community). I know I'll be back because I love connecting with my family and friends but for now I need to take a step back and let their lives drain away from mine.
Within days it has already made a huge positive impact on me emotionally. I feel stronger and less strung out as I start my day. I have more time to get things accomplished. I have more time to spend an extra hour in bed on the weekends with my husband talking and watching tv. I have more time to focus on my life. More time to remember who I am instead of dwelling on who they are.
This journey we are on is ours. It's our life,
Not theirs.
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